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Or.... You can make it that!
Don't get me wrong, there have been bumps, curves, twists
and turns. And many detoured, but it's still life and some
how we get through. A trip a life time in the making and so
Eva and I are on the road trip of our lives. Together for the
good, bad, ugly and every other crazy direction the road of
life takes us.
and turns. And many detoured, but it's still life and some
how we get through. A trip a life time in the making and so
Eva and I are on the road trip of our lives. Together for the
good, bad, ugly and every other crazy direction the road of
life takes us.
10-19-06
This has been a long time coming. We have been in a sort
of stand still as far as Eva's plans on going ahead with
transition. Life takes a lot out of people, but we are strong,
and we know from Where our strength comes from. And
with that we hope and pray that his coming year will be
the one that Eva has been trying to get to! The goal of
being my woman. She really has no choice, for one it's
now or never that's what she feels and I'm totally in her
corner. Two, she has been putting it off for so many
reasons and it's time she put herself first for once!
If there be any one thing that makes me happy, is that the
love of my life be content. And in this I find true joy! So
with that I say a prayer and hope of things yet to come,
my Eva content.
This has been a long time coming. We have been in a sort
of stand still as far as Eva's plans on going ahead with
transition. Life takes a lot out of people, but we are strong,
and we know from Where our strength comes from. And
with that we hope and pray that his coming year will be
the one that Eva has been trying to get to! The goal of
being my woman. She really has no choice, for one it's
now or never that's what she feels and I'm totally in her
corner. Two, she has been putting it off for so many
reasons and it's time she put herself first for once!
If there be any one thing that makes me happy, is that the
love of my life be content. And in this I find true joy! So
with that I say a prayer and hope of things yet to come,
my Eva content.
I would love to get your
e-mail. And see what you
think of me and my page!
e-mail. And see what you
think of me and my page!
2-10-06
Thanks to all for your e-mail's. And if all that I do is
make you cry, I hope that it's for the right reasons. But
just remember, I really enjoy getting your e-mail's. Just
like so many of you, I need encouragement too!
Hope to have some good news soon of were things are
going for Eva and I!
Thanks to all for your e-mail's. And if all that I do is
make you cry, I hope that it's for the right reasons. But
just remember, I really enjoy getting your e-mail's. Just
like so many of you, I need encouragement too!
Hope to have some good news soon of were things are
going for Eva and I!
10-31-05
And for some very good news. Eva and I have started
an on-line store! We hope to be able to make things
work, not just for Eva's sake but for the whole family!!
There is a link on the OTHER GIRLS PAGE.
Any how, if you have time check it out. Keep in mind,
that it is just getting started and we have more yet to
do. It's called the Pearl Street Parlor
Then there is always hope that you will send us an
e-mail and tell us what you think of how the site looks!
Take care, and hope you have a lovely day!
And for some very good news. Eva and I have started
an on-line store! We hope to be able to make things
work, not just for Eva's sake but for the whole family!!
There is a link on the OTHER GIRLS PAGE.
Any how, if you have time check it out. Keep in mind,
that it is just getting started and we have more yet to
do. It's called the Pearl Street Parlor
Then there is always hope that you will send us an
e-mail and tell us what you think of how the site looks!
Take care, and hope you have a lovely day!
Sure I have troubles, some days it's just way to much.
But then I think of how bad it must be for my sweaty!
She is the one who has to live in the wrong body all the
time. I love her and so this thought makes me sad, but I
do strongly think that she is kind of waiting on things.
Waiting out of respect for her mother! And of course we
know that The hand of God will guide her to the place
she is trying to reach!
And as for me, I have been doing okay with things.
Thank you ever so much for stopping by to read just
how crazy I truthfully am!
7-26-05
6-6-05
Well, I have to say.......
Sorry that it has been so very long. We have just
moved into our new house! And let me tell you, after
being with out a place to live for a month well it just
feels great. The new house is what we were looking
for, and it's very much our HOME.
Well, I have to say.......
Sorry that it has been so very long. We have just
moved into our new house! And let me tell you, after
being with out a place to live for a month well it just
feels great. The new house is what we were looking
for, and it's very much our HOME.
3-23-05
I am not sure what to say, but that life is hard for most.
And this year has not been to kind! But though it all
God has been right by my side!!
Eva has been so very sick with depression and lots of
guilt. That it's so hard to see the real her. But going off
her pill's and the death of a family member will do that.
And that is making me go crazy! And it's not like I have
some one to vent out my anger out on. That's what Eva
is for.
On a much happier note, Eva asked me to remarry her!
And give me the wedding that I have longed for. You
see, I had this wonderful dream of how it should have
been. But well Eva just wouldn't wait for a full year to
pass before we wed. I said Christmas, and she wanted
July!
When the time comes, I'll have pictures!
I am not sure what to say, but that life is hard for most.
And this year has not been to kind! But though it all
God has been right by my side!!
Eva has been so very sick with depression and lots of
guilt. That it's so hard to see the real her. But going off
her pill's and the death of a family member will do that.
And that is making me go crazy! And it's not like I have
some one to vent out my anger out on. That's what Eva
is for.
On a much happier note, Eva asked me to remarry her!
And give me the wedding that I have longed for. You
see, I had this wonderful dream of how it should have
been. But well Eva just wouldn't wait for a full year to
pass before we wed. I said Christmas, and she wanted
July!
When the time comes, I'll have pictures!
11-30-04
Well I just loved getting the first good snow fall of the
year. We went out and got our Christmas Tree over the
weekend. And ended up close to the end of field, but
Eva found a very nice eight foot tree!
And well speaking of EVA, she is doing what I think is
very well on her pills. She is very up beat over the
changes that are going on with herself ! And that makes
me very happy.
Well I just loved getting the first good snow fall of the
year. We went out and got our Christmas Tree over the
weekend. And ended up close to the end of field, but
Eva found a very nice eight foot tree!
And well speaking of EVA, she is doing what I think is
very well on her pills. She is very up beat over the
changes that are going on with herself ! And that makes
me very happy.
11-4-04
So this is it. After not writing for many moons, I'm
getting it done. In the past few months Eva has started
on HRT. And she is doing great. All things are changing,
but this time in a very good way for us!
Over the past few weeks, I've been thinking about how
my life has changed and what I'm going to do with it!
I could choose to be silent, or go on writing about my
life. (Beth the wife of a transsexual) Because I want
people out there to know, that my life is in God's hands.
And nothing is to big or small for Him!
I'm great full that life has some good moments mixed
in with all the other stuff that's not so good. Like a
bright sunny day, or the sound of a friend's voice!
So this is it. After not writing for many moons, I'm
getting it done. In the past few months Eva has started
on HRT. And she is doing great. All things are changing,
but this time in a very good way for us!
Over the past few weeks, I've been thinking about how
my life has changed and what I'm going to do with it!
I could choose to be silent, or go on writing about my
life. (Beth the wife of a transsexual) Because I want
people out there to know, that my life is in God's hands.
And nothing is to big or small for Him!
I'm great full that life has some good moments mixed
in with all the other stuff that's not so good. Like a
bright sunny day, or the sound of a friend's voice!
As of last week, we have put our home up for sale. We
would like to be able to have some options in life, and
well Eva is more important to me than some old house
that has a huge family of skunks under it!
Just last week I was out in the yard getting some
flowers for the kitchen table, turned around to go back
inside and there they were! Our dog Rebel didn't even
bark at them.
I hope to get started on a prayer request page in the
future. But right know i am very hard at keeping the
house clean so people can come look at the house. Of
course the great trick there is how two keep to small
boys from destroying it!
5/19/04
I have been ever so slowly distancing myself from friends, family and the
church we belong to. My family, for the most part only care about one thing
and one thing only. There reputation !!!!! And then my friends and church. I
put them together, because a lot of my friends attend the same church!
These are people who are way too judgemental and are so worried about
other's that they have lost most people who are not related to them. And you
ask which church is it ? I have gone to the same church since I was in
diapers, but I am not a born and bred Mennonite! DON'T get me wrong, there
are a lot of good ones out There it's just very hard with the way most of them
believe!!
I have been ever so slowly distancing myself from friends, family and the
church we belong to. My family, for the most part only care about one thing
and one thing only. There reputation !!!!! And then my friends and church. I
put them together, because a lot of my friends attend the same church!
These are people who are way too judgemental and are so worried about
other's that they have lost most people who are not related to them. And you
ask which church is it ? I have gone to the same church since I was in
diapers, but I am not a born and bred Mennonite! DON'T get me wrong, there
are a lot of good ones out There it's just very hard with the way most of them
believe!!
5-14-04
Things are getting to be so crazy in my head. My
thought's are now centered on how to make my Eva
into the woman who has become the best part of my
life!!
I have come to love her so much!To the very point it
pains me to see The man. Okay let me just say that I
despise the man who comes home to me every night
after work. (I want my wife)
Things are getting to be so crazy in my head. My
thought's are now centered on how to make my Eva
into the woman who has become the best part of my
life!!
I have come to love her so much!To the very point it
pains me to see The man. Okay let me just say that I
despise the man who comes home to me every night
after work. (I want my wife)
The life that I have chosen makes me very glad in my
heart! Sadness when I think of all that may or may not
be lost when my Eva comes out.
Well on a lovely note, I told my best friend a few
months ago about Eva! She is very understanding
about things and is a true gift from the gates of Heaven!
Thanks Nettie
I love the moments that Eva and I have shared. And I have found
that I love having a very close girl friend, one that is always
there for me! We have no clue just how much of woman Eva will
become, but I love her very much!
10-2-03
I just had something wrote down and forgot to save it! So I'll try
to do my best.
The way I feel about life with my Eva, is that I love her. She
always talks about becoming more of a real woman. And then
that starts a huge talk on why not, why not become one!
I listen for a long time to what she is telling me, and make some
coffee. And get settled in for a wile, but with great love and
respect for some one who decide to go through life Evan when
life is against her.
How crazy of me, to fall for a wonderful and soft hearted man.
Only to find he really is a woman at heart!
Well I Just have to say that with two little boys, it makes
everything harder for us. But we have gotten this far with things,
so who knows what else is in our reach!
I just had something wrote down and forgot to save it! So I'll try
to do my best.
The way I feel about life with my Eva, is that I love her. She
always talks about becoming more of a real woman. And then
that starts a huge talk on why not, why not become one!
I listen for a long time to what she is telling me, and make some
coffee. And get settled in for a wile, but with great love and
respect for some one who decide to go through life Evan when
life is against her.
How crazy of me, to fall for a wonderful and soft hearted man.
Only to find he really is a woman at heart!
Well I Just have to say that with two little boys, it makes
everything harder for us. But we have gotten this far with things,
so who knows what else is in our reach!
2-4-04
A new year and wow! Well we decided that Eva will
wait awhile to become more of a woman. Out of
respect for some of our family member's.
But I would say that the most wonderful and awesome
thing that has come out of all this, is that I have found
what was missing in my life! A Woman!!
So now things are much better than they have ever
been in my! And for Eva and I life is great. Yes with
many new problems, but we look forward to life as two
people who love each other!
A new year and wow! Well we decided that Eva will
wait awhile to become more of a woman. Out of
respect for some of our family member's.
But I would say that the most wonderful and awesome
thing that has come out of all this, is that I have found
what was missing in my life! A Woman!!
So now things are much better than they have ever
been in my! And for Eva and I life is great. Yes with
many new problems, but we look forward to life as two
people who love each other!
| My first entry |
Where does one start in on this? It is not without great
thought and much prayer that I write this.
My name is Beth. And after being married for a little over two
years and almost two kids, my sparky brings up that he has
something he needs to tell me! At first when he told me, I
was in daze for a few weeks. I broke down and he stayed
home from work , and we talked and talked some more!
And that was when I told him that I loved him so very much.
And when we married I made a vow to him and to God! That
my love would always be there for as long as he needed me
to be!
There was a lot of hurt feelings on both sides, but I loved the
new sparky ! And know she is my best friend !
We are not sure just were God will lead us. But I know with
the faith that Eva and I share in Christ, we will always have
hope! Throughout the joy and pain.
thought and much prayer that I write this.
My name is Beth. And after being married for a little over two
years and almost two kids, my sparky brings up that he has
something he needs to tell me! At first when he told me, I
was in daze for a few weeks. I broke down and he stayed
home from work , and we talked and talked some more!
And that was when I told him that I loved him so very much.
And when we married I made a vow to him and to God! That
my love would always be there for as long as he needed me
to be!
There was a lot of hurt feelings on both sides, but I loved the
new sparky ! And know she is my best friend !
We are not sure just were God will lead us. But I know with
the faith that Eva and I share in Christ, we will always have
hope! Throughout the joy and pain.
June 2009 (wow)
Can this be true? The long and short answer, is yes! For
the past few years I have taken care of most things,
except the pages on our site. So......... If you want to
know what I am doing, hang on you know the road trip
theory. I have taken over being head of house hold.! This
is huge! The one who gets the job, pays the bills, puts
down the foot and says yes or no! And for the next part,
Eva is becoming more female. So she has taken over
being care giver of the kids, house , and relearning our
new roles have been at times a harsh reality on both
ends! And I want all of you to know how proud I am of
Eva! She is a great wife and she has become a great
mommy. Even if the boys still call her Dad.
I have been slowly working on my business. I love making
beaded jewelry and have been selling it for a few years
now. I just opened up an on line shop on Etsy. And Eva
put a link for it under shopping I think. So this is my shop
name, End of the road gifts! I just started that, and am
working on candles next!
Can this be true? The long and short answer, is yes! For
the past few years I have taken care of most things,
except the pages on our site. So......... If you want to
know what I am doing, hang on you know the road trip
theory. I have taken over being head of house hold.! This
is huge! The one who gets the job, pays the bills, puts
down the foot and says yes or no! And for the next part,
Eva is becoming more female. So she has taken over
being care giver of the kids, house , and relearning our
new roles have been at times a harsh reality on both
ends! And I want all of you to know how proud I am of
Eva! She is a great wife and she has become a great
mommy. Even if the boys still call her Dad.
I have been slowly working on my business. I love making
beaded jewelry and have been selling it for a few years
now. I just opened up an on line shop on Etsy. And Eva
put a link for it under shopping I think. So this is my shop
name, End of the road gifts! I just started that, and am
working on candles next!
NEW YEAR 2010
Well it's a new year, and much is uncertain. The old year is
gone and the new has come. Thank God!
If all goes as planned, Eva and I will keep going down that
road to Eva's liberation! All that and more, we are going to be
celebrating our tenth wedding anniversary this summer. And
we are going to renew and reaffirm our vows as well. I am
hopping that we keep on course, but in the end if God sends
us some detours then it will take longer. But we know that
God has all thing's in the palm of His hand's!
Well it's a new year, and much is uncertain. The old year is
gone and the new has come. Thank God!
If all goes as planned, Eva and I will keep going down that
road to Eva's liberation! All that and more, we are going to be
celebrating our tenth wedding anniversary this summer. And
we are going to renew and reaffirm our vows as well. I am
hopping that we keep on course, but in the end if God sends
us some detours then it will take longer. But we know that
God has all thing's in the palm of His hand's!
02-2-10
I am working on Eva and keeping her in check.
I am working on Eva and keeping her in check.
03/18/10
Spring has com at last! And with it comes the warmer
weather and the return of flowers and sunny days. Time
marches on and so does my work on helping Eva in her
becoming a woman! If you ask yourself how does she do
it? Well it takes a whole lot of work and tons of inner
strength! Because I care and love her deeply, I am a
woman and she is in the depths of trying to do better at
this some what of a mystery!
Spring has com at last! And with it comes the warmer
weather and the return of flowers and sunny days. Time
marches on and so does my work on helping Eva in her
becoming a woman! If you ask yourself how does she do
it? Well it takes a whole lot of work and tons of inner
strength! Because I care and love her deeply, I am a
woman and she is in the depths of trying to do better at
this some what of a mystery!
Two are better than one, because they have a good return
for their work; If one falls down, his friend can help him up.
But pity the man who falls and has no one to help him
up!Ecclesiastes 4:9-10 NIV
Working on getting Eva back in shape, and well I need
to loose a few pounds too!
to loose a few pounds too!
If you have not noticed the site has taken over a look of
it's own. I have mostly taken over putting it all together,
but this has been a great move for eva and I! As Eva and I
have shifted rolls!
it's own. I have mostly taken over putting it all together,
but this has been a great move for eva and I! As Eva and I
have shifted rolls!